Wednesday, September 29, 2004

And now for silly blogs with Derek...

Thought of the Day: I've been pretty serious lately, haven't I?
Song of the Day: Relient K, "Sadie Hawkins Dance"


I was thinking about my blog this morning on my walk to school, and I realized that I have been pretty heavy lately. Lots of thoughts about purpose and cause and reasons for existence and other things that cannot really be digested easily. The reason this came up was because I was listening to Relient K's masterpiece "The Anatomy of the Tongue in Cheek." This album is perhaps the perfect mix of comedy and commentary. They make incredibly poignant points about the church, the purpose of life, appearances, failure, worship, and friendship, yet they are able to also throw in fun songs. And this made me think of my blog: while I never want it to degrade into a "this is what I did today" sort of log of life events, I do want it to reflect me. Both sides of me, the serious and the silly. So I'm going to try to blog some lighter stuff. I think I have been putting a lot of that commentary into the "Life of Turner" column for the Sheaf, and that's why the blog has been heavier. Thanks for putting up with me over the past month, too.

There's a few things I wanted to mention today. First, go to U2.com and check out the new single "Vertigo," off the upcoming release "How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb" which drops (pun intended) Nov. 23. It's U2, but it's not...it's reminiscent of early 80s Clash and mid-90s Offspring, but also of "Elevation" from U2's last album. Point is, I can't wait to hear the rest of the album, and this is just the beginning.

Also on the "can't wait" list is Relient K's fourth album "Mmhmm", coming Nov. 2. They just keep getting better and better. Go to purevolume.com and listen to their song "I So Hate Consequences." That's right, that's a scream you hear in the background. Also check out www.mmhmm.com.

Life is settling down, routine is setting in. And it's nearly October. Well, that's the kind of month-ish it has been. By the way, check out some of the links I've installed, particularly other bloggers. There are some really creative people I know. And enjoy the new design of the blog. I know I do! And leave comments, since I've reinstated them to the site. Please.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Another day, another mistake...or fifty

Thought of the Day: I hope these are all new mistakes.
Song of the Day: Demon Hunter, "I Have Seen Where It Grows"


Life is a path
Death a destination
I've met the end of being
My eyes are open wide
I feel myself depleting
And watch my body die

These lyrics (from the song of the day) may seem dark and nihilistic to the untrained observer, but they are in fact the opposite. They may appear to reflect a desperate wish for suicide, and they do in a sense do just that. But rather than the hopeless kind of lyrics that point to physical death as the salvation of self, this song points to death of self as the only way to grow. In this sense, Christ has opened our eyes to the need for the death of self to fully embrace Him and allow the "it" of the title - our relationship with Him and His life in us -- to grow. Deep stuff.

I have been thinking about making mistakes, and how many I make every day. Every day. Mistakes that hurt me, my friends, and God. Every day. I have recently been made aware of some of those mistakes, despite my best thoughts that everything is going perfectly well. People often comment on how I am so humble and able to admit my mistakes. Well, the fact is that I think I probably make more mistakes than most people, and I probably do not even begin to realize the extent to which they affect those around me. And I often take it for granted that I daily need the redemptive power of Jesus' blood to wash over me and make me clean of all the sins I daily commit.
Am I ever going to stop making mistakes? No. Will I hopefully not repeat the mistakes that I have already made. Probably not. My only hope is that when I get to the Great White Throne that it is not me that God will see, but Jesus in me. And that Jesus in me is doing far more good on this earth than the Derek in me is doing wrong. Such is the process of life. I am beginning to understand why Catholics believe purgatory is necessary. I will need a good purging of things me to enter the presence of the most holy. But eventually, it will all come down to those key words I cannot wait to hear, because they will signal the end of this fleshly existence and herald a new life: "Well done, good and faithful servant."

P.S. Trouble, I miss you so much. Less than 21 months to go. Yee haw.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Priorities

Thought of the Day: I don't want to choose what's "better," I want what's "best."
Song of the Day: Blindside, "Sleepwalking"


It's been a real week of thinking here in my mind. One thing that God has really shown me recently is that I need to have my priorities in order: God, A, people, stuff. He comes first, and I do not mean all the ministry opportunities He gives me. I mean relating to Him. That's the key. Without that, the rest is all hollow.

He also reminded me last night that people are so important. Years down the road, no one will remember the piddly details about some event. They will remember the relationships they made, and the friendships that transcend those events. With that in mind, I'm never too busy for people. If you need me, I am here. Thanks for understanding.

Love., D

Thursday, September 23, 2004

A midday's reflection leading into night

Thought of the Day: Turner. It's more than a lifestyle, it's a way of life.
Song of the Day: Blindside, "King of the Closet"


First off, if you do not yet possess the Understated record, you need to buy it. It will speak to your soul. There are few artists who possess this talent so early in their artistic lives, but there is definitely the gift with this band. Blindside is another band like that. And to be mentioned in the same paragraph as Blindside is some kind of feat.

Secondly, you all need to be reading the Life of Turner in the Sheaf. If you cannot get a physical copy, check out the pdf version online at www.thesheaf.com. Don't be the only person on your block not reading the Life of Turner! By the way, the official slogan is today's thought of the day. Genius, if I do say so m'self.

I've been thinking a lot about priorities and possibilities lately, as you may have gathered in recent blogs. I feel like I am learning more and more each day about abiding in God's will. Not in the cheesy worship-song churchy way, but in the reality of living each day depending on the Lord for everything and guidance in all things, including interactions with people. I guess what I can say is that I'm looking forward to eternity, when I have all kinds of people and all kinds of time. It's going to be a blast.

Day by day, step by step, following, following. That's my life. As of tomorrow, only 21 months until A and I become perma-roomies. By which I mean married. My heart aches for her, but God is bigger than that pain. I am still running the race. Are you keeping up?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Making most of the days

Thought of the Day: It's the pursuit of my life...
Song of the Day: Understated, "To Know You"


Do you ever have that feeling like you will never be done all the things that need to be done? Like you have a "to do" list that has no end? That is how I have been feeling lately. There seems to be so much to do. And it does not seem like just another ordinary September.
It is so easy to get caught up in the details of life. It would take a whole life to keep the maintenance on that life properly. Lately, it has seemed as if I have no time to waste. Every minute has to be purposeful. Chillin' can happen, but only in the schedule of things. Maybe this is what Paul talked about in Ephesians 5:15-17.
I have my fall schedule nearly figured out. There is not a lot of lag time. So that means that things like movies and video games get cut. But I find it better that way. There are a lot of opportunities to make the most of. I just need to keep discerning what opportunities to take hold of.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

A very personal entry

Thought of the day: I'm sorry. I really am.
Song of the day: Understated, "Privilege"


First things first. I really do apologize about the lack of blog. I guess there are times where I underestimate the significance of what I am doing here. And then there are times where I wonder if it is truly significant at all. Is it? Let me know if this blog is actually touching your life or affecting you in anyway...you should know the e-mail (check the profile if you need it). That's all for that.

The first week of school is now completed. Kicks are offed, life is going. Is it just me, or does it seem that life never really slows down? For me, life seems to be one continual race (see Phil. 3:12-14, Heb. 12:1-2) and I'm always running. In the midst of beginning the race anew this year, there are a few things I have learned:

a. There are too many people to reach;
b. There is too little time;
c. There is so much I want to do; and
d. I wish there was more of me to go around.

There is so much out there to do. So many people to reach that God has put into my life day by day. And I cannot do nearly any of what I want to do. I would honestly love to devote my life simply to people, but it just cannot happen right now. There are a lot of people out there who I love dearly and just not enough time to connect with all of you. I have realized that all I can do with my friendships is trust God day by day. I just have to follow His leading regarding the people with whom I am supposed to connect on a daily basis. If you are one of those people I love and you are feeling neglected, I am truly sorry. You will more or less have to contact me. That is just the reality of this life. I'm a missionary to the campus, and missionaries do not have a lot of time to be able to exist outside their world. But my furlough will come eventually. Whatever happens, know that I do care about you and if nothing else there is an eternity of hanging out and listening to Petra rock the heavens ahead for us.

That said, I will try to blog more regularly. Thanks for your time and effort into my life. It is appreciated so much.

Love to you all.

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Grrrr.

Thought of the Day: Re-blogging stinks.
Song of the Day: Grits, "Seriously"

It bugs me when I blog, and then it doesn't post, because the second time is just never as inspired or intelligent as the first time you blog. That said, here's the highlights for this re-blog:

Harvest Moon, Edmonton, this weekend. I'm there with a "media pass." So ridiculously good.
School starts tomorrow. Schedule sifting out this week. More as this story develops.
Understated CD release party, 8 pm Weds., Circle Drive Alliance. It will rock your face off.
Contact me personally after next week if you want to talk or hang out. Life is always busy, but never too busy for friends.

That's all for now folks.

School's back

Thought of the Day: Whoa.
Song of the Day: Grits, "Seriously"


It's the last night of summer. School starts officially tomorrow. Unbelievable. My almost three weeks of summer vacation are now officially over. I'm excited about school going again, but I think it's honestly going to be tougher this year. Fifth year, still finishing a B.A., but following God wherever He may lead. There are things in store for me and for IVCF that I cannot even begin to imagine, and that helps keep me going some days. The Lord is good, and His mercy endures forever. Wow.

On a completely unrelated topic, I've already begun entering "concert mode" by immersing myself in the music of the bands I will be seeing (and interviewing) this weekend at Harvest Moon in Edmonton. Today was Grits and Blindside...tomorrow Brave Saint Saturn, maybe? Speaking of which, "Seriously," track 7 off of Grits' 2002 album "The Art of Translation," is the song that convinced me that they are as talented musically as Outkast and the other leaders of their genre. They should be great in concert. It will be good to get back into "rock-writer" mode, since I have been out of practice for awhile. Keep reading the Sheaf for the latest articles (www.thesheaf.com)!

Speaking of music, check out Understated's CD release party, Weds. Sept. 8 at 8 pm at Circle Drive Alliance. These guys are committed to serving the Lord and they rock your face off. An unbeatable combination.

Lots is beginning to shape up for the fall. This is the week where everything begins to come together, and then by next week I'm in full-blown student mode again. Whee.

Until we meet again.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Random

Thought of the Day: Go Canada Go!
Song of the Day: Bilingual "O Canada"


Quick thoughts of the day:
Loved the Canada retro jerseys.
Mario Lemieux looks better than ever.
I love having hockey back.
Roommates who get you free stuff are cool.
Mandarin oranges are vastly underrated.
Getting your name dropped on someone else's blog is like being mentioned in an Oscar acceptance speech.
New Sheaf on Thursday. Check out the "Guide to Note Organization". Seriously.
I need to clip my fingernails.

Heading to Regina for a couple of days, mostly to run errands and see select people. Do not be offended if you are not in the elect few. Hopefully it makes a difference for me to go down to Student Loans in person, rather than on the phone. Have a great end to the week.

Faith, hope, and love.

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